About me.

With all the sarcasm and irony I have, I need to admit that I'm going through one of my worst periods too. Kinda 36 days.

My fault, not my fault, it's easy hearing people judging you on common places without a clue of what your life has been.

I'm not declaring I'm perfect, never did. I'm neither saying that my life has been worse than others, but you know what? Being mine I feel pretty involved.

I am that one that dress herself always with a smile hiding the tears in her eyes, I'm the one that, when people ask "how are you?", I say "Grand!" even if my world is falling apart.

I'm the one that is able to forgive even the baddest low blow to the ones I love, just because I love them and I'm always ready to give them a chance that has been denied to me in past.

I learn from my mistakes but it doesn't mean I won't make them again, maybe a new one.

I'm bloody moody and victim of my upsets and if there's something I won't ever learn is not to close a call when I'm out of me. I always did and I will always do.

Yes, when I'm depressed I tend to give me all faults of my sadness and punish myself for that.

I tend to run away from everything hurts me. Call it self defence.

I have this fucking big heart that is able to give everything, but it asks something in return because I'd like to be cherished as well.

I could be cute, but it doesn't mean I'm stupid too. Unfortunately I have a brain's working 24/7. 

I don't fall in love nor love people that easily, but it doesn't matter, because who I loved in my life never understood how lucky they were till the day I left. Sometimes neither then.

I tend to look at the good in each person, because it's so easy standing on a pulpit and judging people. I learned not to judge anyone.

Every word I speak is out of my experience and not just out of some stupid rumour or other point of view.

Result of this is that I always feel out of place like the Cassandra of my time.

I talk with my heart but I used my mind before doing it.

Now I'm just wondering if there's someone like me outside.

If yes, please give me a sign because I need to talk.